chemo - 1 down, 7 to go

One of the side effects of the chemo I had Wednesday is blurred vision, which is frustrating because writing has become so cathartic, but now much more difficult to do.  I'm told it may improve, but may not until after treatments are over.  After just one session, I can honestly say I've never wished for time to fly by faster than I am now.  I know that I am lucky by comparison to people who have treatments daily, or for longer periods of time; but I can't help feel that the road is going to feel longer than I hoped or anticipated.  


But then again, any road worth traveling is worth the effort, and this road is my yellow brick road to the cancer-free land of Oz. 


My day started out rough, after quite a few days of feeling lethargic from the anti-nausea meds; which by the way, do the job.  I did have to go back into the hospital day after chemo for an IV saline and some new anti-nausea meds, plus a shot to increase my production of white blood cells, that was thursday.  Friday is a loss for the most part, and thanks to a good friend being by my side I was able to make it through.  Saturday was lethargy, but today was the oddest.  Beginning at 3 am I became anxious, couldn't sleep, too tired to walk, too jacked up to sit still.  It was by far the oddest and most disturbing side effect, but it seems to have worn off now at 7pm.  


It is a continued blessing to have my good friend walking down this path with me.  She told me this morning I'd start feeling better tonight, and she was right.  Although our treatments are different, there are enough similarities that she is my chemo "guru".   And I  know she has a family friend she talks with who has been there long before she or I.  Each of us finds our guru to help us through, which makes me wonder who's guru I will be.  I pray each day it is no one I know.